I’m sorry it’s been so hard of late. I once got a penance of having to walk across an entire church …on my knees. Although, I live in Mexico. I bled from doing that. It’s a fairly common penance, here, though.
Then, I decided to leave the Church and stayed away, I think, over 10 years, total.
I thought, “This is not for me”.
I tried a bunch of churches, church after church…denomination after denomination, but even with all these experiences, I returned to the Church, because I believe, which was only reinforced by my search, that the Catholic Church has the “fullness of truth”.
In retrospect, when I think of my entire life and think that penance…for the sins I’ve committed during my life would actually be exceedingly light, because I have not been a very good person!
So, I try to accept my penances, now. Yes, it hurts when I feel a priest might not like me. I try to find priests I can at least relate to me a bit, if possible. We can’t always pick and choose. At certain churches, we get whoever is available at the time.
However, I am going to another church where I can pick my confessor.
Now, it’d hurt my feelings, but if a priest told me to walk on my knees in 20 churches, in reality, it’d be a small price to pay given all the sins I’ve committed during my life. I’d be getting off VERY light!