After Retrouvaille, my wife says no way will she continue on. She has so much resentment and hatred towards me it is incredible. But she won;t say why. She wants out and to live single. She wants to find true love whch she found but the affair broke off. Now she says if we cant get an annulment she will find love anyway even if it is a sin because what kind of God would make you make a promise and if things don't work out have you miserable the rest of your life, How do you deal with that statement WOW! So in other words if no annulment God still wants you to be happy in sin. All about pleasure. I told her it was grave sin and she said she would take her chances. God would not want her to be miserable.
What about me. I have to live single and cant have a female partner, so that is going to be extremely difficult but I understand Vows and sins. It is a sacrafice and cross I have to carry.
Thanks for all your prayers. For now her and the 2 boys and my 19 year old daughter will move out and I will live by myself. The kids want to live with her, so for now I need the time to think. However if we divorce, it will be a whole nother story where I will want the boys.
I feel like there are days where I wish i would get hit by a bus. Then she could get her life insurance $250,000, an annulment and start over and find love. I am finding it harder every day to live with her since I love her so much. I have so much pain, I just want out of this life, The kids don't respect me, my wife doesn't, I feel so out of place living here I just want to have all this go away.
Perhaps some day that will be God's wish. Hopefully that day come sooner than later, I can't take this pain any longer.