I was reflecting on the teaching that missing mass is a mortal sin the other day, and I thought it was odd that I felt no different when I was “deprived of sanctifying grace.”
Then I realized that due to habitual sin, I’m in a state of mortal sin for probably 99% of my life. I know that this has numbed my sense of shame, and I wonder if it has also numbed my relationship with God.
Anyone who knows the definition of mortal sin can determine whether they’re in a state of grace or not. But for those of you who spend less time being hell-bound than me, are there any emotional indicators when you know you have committed a mortal sin? Do you feel pretty good while in a state of grace?
Am I missing the boat entirely by asking about feelings?