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I think we can all agree that suicide is disordered and given that, mercy abounds, I once read in St. Faustina's diary the Lord's conversation with a despairing soul. He comes to the soul, but the soul withdrawls, despairing, feeling unworthy, again, He comes and is rejected, again the same. I think it was 3 times He comes, but numbers can be elusive. Finally, if the soul despairs and continues to reject, He leaves that soul in that state. You would have to think that facing the illuminating light of Truth and Love in Christ before your face, you would reach out to Him, but I think the souls reacts to its nature or state, not it's mind.
I think that you bring up an excellent point here. The issue of dispair.
If one dispairs of life, dispairs of their worthiness to live, for whatever reason, this is certainly effect how they go to meet their Lord. However there may be particulars of their dispair that can mitigate their judgement.
St Cathereine, in the dialogues, talks about how the soul, at the point of death, reaches out for that which it desired most and built up in life.
If it has built up Love and is perfected in Love, it will reach out for that Love and be drawn into heaven.
If it has been bulding up love, but is not perfected in that love, it will reach out for mercy and be drawn into prugatory that it's love might be perfected.
If, however the soul has rejected Love and built up evil, it will reach out for that evil and embrace it as it's own.
If one considers the above one can readily see how difficult it is to "know" with any certainly about the salvation of most souls for we all would seem to fit most readily into the second option, imperfected in Love. That we have good and bad traits. However we cannot truly know what is in the core of any individual.