So my mom is very anti catholic and doesn’t want me having any part in it well which isnt really news but what she did this morning was just… peculiar. So out of the ordinary she decided to pray over me. Not for me in her bedroom, she came in my room on my bed and threw herself on me and started praying over me. Funny thing is my mom rarely prays since she goes to work and is busy most of the time but I didnt move but i listened to what she said.
It was something along the lines of “send your angel and reveal yourself. Help her to know where she’s come from and help her remember where shes come from.” I actually tried texting my neighbour for help because he knows my beliefs and how my mom can’t accept my catholic faith at all. It’s funny because when all was said and done everything she prayed for has already happened.
All my years of going to church with my mom has really only gotten me so far. Every church she chooses its as if everyone is playing church and people just want to be seen. For a while i was like that till God pulled me back to his church. I was baptized in her church that didn’t even believe in the trinity so I can’t even call it a valid baptism. She also prayed that God use me and that people see a difference in me that sets me apart from everyone else.
Its almost as if she doesn’t see the growth in my faith since I started practicing my Catholic faith. She said I’m not allowed to be Catholic in her house so she makes me go to church and do alter calls and everything but i actually refused to go for any alter calls because i felt like I would be me abandoning my faith just to please my mom and I refuse to go back to playing church again. The longer I go without the sacraments the less fight for my faith i feel like i have. And i feel she knows that if she has the power to keep me from my faith that i will eventually break down and do what she says. Oh boy this is starting to get rough… do you think I’m just overthinking or that my mom is actually trying to force my faith away and even prayed to God that it happen?