For me, it seems like Lent just doesn’t work.
For one thing, it’s at the worst time of year–the weather is generally dreadful, I almost always catch some horrible virus and spend about 10 days feverish, coughing my lungs out, stuffy-headed, and exhausted, and unable to eat much of anything except Mountain Dew.
And our hospital workload is back-breaking. EVERYONE else is sick, too, and we end up going into work early in the A.M., sometimes before 5:00 a.m., and leaving late, usually after 4:00 P.M.
And this time change–ICK Totally messes with me
And it’s still dark, and still cold, and raining, and for the last several years, our city has experienced flooding.
And things are breaking in the house–we currently have no running water, so I had to get up at 4 a.m. and go to my gym to take a shower. First time I’ve been in my gym since last fall!
And while other Catholics are paring back on all their “extras” and trying to concentrate on Jesus, I’m busier than ever at church playing piano/organ, and so I’m definitely not sitting in the pews contemplating the Lord, but instead, making sure I have my music ready to go.
I wish that Christians who are secretly musicians would step up at Lent and take over for all of us who play all year long.
And there are extra Bible studies, which I signed up for at my parish–but haven’t yet attended and haven’t studied for because of all the stuff I’ve already talked about!
And even though meals are supposed to be simpler–it’s women (me!) who end up doing a ton of extra work trying to make those “simple” meals–instead of just picking up McDonalds, or making a frozen pizza (although while I’ve been sick, my husband has done a lot of take-out!). We actually spend MORE money on food during Lent trying to be “meatless.” It’s expensive! And it’s not really very tasty and we end up throwing a lot of it out.
I wish that Lent were in the autumn–that’s when I have actual time and energy to sit back and think about the direction of my life and my relationship to the Lord Jesus.
Oh, well. Easter’s on the way. And maybe that’s just the way God wants my Lent to be, so that I will trust Him instead of all the “Lenten disciplines.”