This means “blameable”. Yes, we are all blameable for our actions, but we are invited to forgive.
Great question. This is a process of discovery.
“respond-able”, yes, we are called to respond for our actions. Our ability to respond is hindered by our grasp of the situation, but we are still called to respond for our actions.
Yes, your conscience screamed, but its screaming was compromised by the following:
Yes, you did not have an objective grasp of what you were doing. You wanted “freedom”, but freedom meant destroying a life, a life that suddenly had far less meaning than your desire for freedom, your fears, your anger, whatever other emotion or desire would allow. We are inadvertently blinded by many emotions. Later on, when the emotions are gone, we say “I should have known better.”
You did not know what you were doing at the moment, you believed the “head reasons”.
I apologize if it sounds like I am making a bunch of assumptions about you. I am saying what would have happened in my mind if I had chosen the same. I’m also assuming a lot of circumstantial stuff, please forgive me, I don’t know the specifics.
Yes. I especially relate to “the sense of responsibility grows in freedom”. When I discovered the reasons why I did all the bad I have ever done, I was able to forgive myself at a deeper level. I can take complete ownership of my sin because I forgive myself. I did not know what I was doing.