I’ve been lurking for a long time, but this is my first post. This board seems so kind and supportive and I’m hoping someone will be able to help me out here with what seems like kind of a silly issue.
I’ve been driving for about 20 years. In that time, I’ve had 3 accidents, two minor and one which totalled my car (only very minor injuries, thank God). I was determined to be more than 50% at fault in each case, though I only got a ticket for one of them. In one case, the driver in front of me braked very suddenly, but I rear-ended him (so my fault). In another, I was waiting to turn left (south). There were two lanes of traffic heading north, the right lane was backed up waiting for a light and a driver stopped and waved me through. I inched forward but another driver, who was speeding and had been in the right lane, moved into the left lane and hit me (I got the ticket, as it was my fault, I was turning left).
I’ve also received two speeding tickets in my driving career (both for 5 mph over) and one for turning right on a red light when I wasn’t supposed to (It was dark and I was unfamiliar with the area, but I should have been paying more attention). Oh, and I once sheared off my side mirror on the side of my parents’ garage :o . I think I backed into a mailbox when I had my learner’s permit, too.
I just got one of the above-mentioned speeding tickets last week and it’s really thrown my mind for a loop, remembering all of my past experiences. The officer was really mean to me, yelling and everything because I pulled into a parking lot a few feet ahead instead of stopping immediately on the road. It’s embarrassing, sure, but more than that I feel like I’m some kind of road menace. I’m not a reckless driver-- I’m really not-- but I guess I’m just a bad one. I’m beginning to feel like I don’t deserve to be given the privelege of driving and I’m not sure if I trust myself with my most precious cargo-- my children!-- in the car with me.
Not sure what I’m looking for here-- a vent, I guess. Please be kind with me. I’m feeling really low about my driving abilities right now. Thanks.