[quote=Lux_et_veritas]Wow, I could have written your post with the same questions. The Holy Spirit started kicking some serious butt about the time Pope John Paul died and it got intense when Pope Benedict stepped into the shoes of the fisherman. I was on a 15 year detour that I now see as seriously dysfunctional from a Catholic point of view and I thought I was a good Catholic.
I figured that all that God had revealed to me over a 6 week period required a “dine-in” confession rather than a “drive-thru” confession. I sat with Father a good hour - 30 minutes longer than I told him I needed (shame on me), but he was kind and generous with his time.
I have been wondering the same things you have. What if I had died during that 15 year hiatus? I’ve even wondered if I am about to die because he brought me home laughs.
I just got out of the hospital after being in for 2 days to deal with chest pain that went up into my neck and jaw and let me tell you, I was at east and at peace the whole time. All I could think about was thank God, father found time for me and how lucky I was by the grace of God to have come to my senses.
I had a similiar experience with my first confession after a 35 year hiatus. The priest was amazingly kind and understanding.
It’s wonderful how you have come back. I can relate to much of your story.
My journey included my family. My concern is more that of my family. Although they have converted to Catholicism, they are more on the beginning of thier journey. They are not as interested in reading scripture and studying the faith as I am. I attribute this to thier being somewhat typical teenage and 20-somethings who are still fascinated and enlightened by what this world has to offer and, of course, thier respective futures. My life situation is of course much different. I’ve grown a bit tired of the non-sense this world has to offer and I find myself much more interested in the beauty of God’s creation itself along with wanting to learn more and more about my faith. I think this comes with maturity and age as well as guidence by the Holy Spirit.
Of course I’d like to come home and see them reading the Holy Bible instead of watching a Lifetime movie but I suppose at this time in thier lives this is too much to expect.
But, as the topic of this thread indicates, the whole issue has got me wondering about Gods patience with Spiritual maturity (or lack there-of).