I am set to be confirmed in April, and my priest said that while I am eligible to go to confession because of my Christian baptism, I shouldn’t until around January. While I trust his judgment, it is incredibly painful to not be able to go to confession. I have mortal sin within me and I want to purge it from me as soon as possible. It pains me to be cut off from God, I feel that my prayers fall on deaf ears because of this. I still have the sin of pornography, and it’s habitual and is my go-to way of releasing stress and anger. I know it’s a grave sin and I have resisted sometimes in the past, but I always seem to keep tripping up. It happened earlier tonight, actually.
A) Are my prayers completely unheard or unanswered? Is there even a point in praying while in this state?
B) If I have sin, but feel immense guilt afterward, should I pray immediately afterward or am I too unclean at that moment to approach God?
C) I intend to go to confession as soon as I am able to expunge these sins from myself and make myself in good standing with God. Does this count for anything, or does it only count once it actually happens?