I can tell this is bothering you a lot. Let me tell you a story about my Dad. My mother was pregnant with number 4 (me). They didn’t have a pot to **** in and my Dad got fired two days before Christmas and not a single present had been bought.
My Dad got on his knees and prayed a novena to St. Joseph. He only knew how to do one thing, construction. He took inventory of what he had which was a house and it had a little bit of equity, not much. He borrowed money and mortgaged the rest of his house to buy equipment. Next, he prayed for work. He miraculously got a phone call asking him to do some work. It was a big job and he needed a crew. He thought he was going to have to turn down the job when he heard a knock on the door. Standing in his doorway were a few men and they asked my Dad if he needed a crew to work for him because they had just walked in on their boss with his gay lover and were uncomfortable working for him anymore. My Dad was so surprised! He said, Yes and that was how he started his business. This business provided for the family for the next twenty years.
So, don’t lose hope! Find the 30 day novena to St. Joseph and start praying.