I got major depression at the moment as well as a phobia of religion, which basically means that i freak out and spiral into despair and darkness whenever i go near anything that reminds me of God. I’m getting heaps better. A few months ago i wouldn’t have been able to attend this site. The point is that our circumstances may affect our ability to keep the commandments. While they may be easy for some, others like me who have huge bitterness issues toward God and don’t want to be alive may find it hard to keep the commandments. For instance, i absolutely dread going to church because it usually sends me down in a spiral. It’s like superman going near chryptonite.
I understand that not everything is black and white. So if I die in mortal sin is it certain that I will go to hell?