Hi, I would apperciate any advice that would be given to me by anyone here. First of all, I do suffer from some form of a mental illness (bipolar). Although I have this disorder, I try to have a positive outlook in life and I try to have a relationship with God. But there are times that I lose hope and when faced with difficult and stressful situations, I tend to lose my faith in Him.
I would like to know if God is still with me inspite of my mental illness. Sometimes I cannot feel His presence at all and I struggle with my relationship with Him and I fall into this darkness and I try to find peace which is so difficult to attain. I get so fearful when this happens and I get this feeling that the Lord had left me and had abandoned me.
I don’t know if my illness or the devil is the one who is trying to play tricks on me, or whether I am just a weak person. But I just need to know if there is still a chance that I can build a stronger relationship with the Lord and how I will be able to do it consistently.