Lately it appears that the more I have prayed for others the more I seem to be under temptation, since my greatest battle upto date and still is with sexual temptation, that’s what the temptations are.
Before I go to sleep, randomnly during the day, at church, when i wake up, now this isn’t like everyday temptations that we all encounter, these are much stronger than normal for me when I’m praying for others, particularly my grandad who also suffers from the same thing. It’s accompanied with feelings of hopelessness and suicidal thoughts, thoughts also that the Lord will not hear me, also thoughts that the Lord will not answer my prayers. Just today when I was at church right at the back, some lady came and stood next to me, and kept looking at me constantly, I thought she was possessed, she kept looking left, forward, left, forward. And my friend who is shacking up with her boyfriend also seems to have developed a keen interest in me, looking for me on the trains, and etc, a very bad combination of things I have to overcome at the moment.
It’s getting increasingly difficult. So back to the main question, is satan’s attack intensified? If so, why does God allow that, surely we can’t be praying for others intensely and then falling the next minute, what use would that be?