OK…I have debated about posting this for more than a week. I just have so many questions and I am very confused.
On Oct. 30th, my dh and I got in an argument that escalated very quickly and he became violent. In the past we have (mostly me) pushed the other person during arguments, but never anything more. Well, this particular argument turned violent very quickly and I now have a broken leg, with a cast from my mid-thigh to my ankle…
He called 911 and an ambulance took me to the hospital and the sheriff took him to jail. He is in counseling, living w/some very gracious friends and dealing w/the justice system.
I on the other hand, don’t know what to do. He meant to throw me down and hurt me, but he didn’t have any intention of breaking a bone. I have put off thinking much about whether to separate or try and work things out until I am able to stand on my own two feet…literally. I have been strong in voicing that I am not comfortable w/him being here and I have done nothing to have the mandatory restraining order lifted.
Before this happened, I struggled w/discerning what God wants me to do. I had come to the conclusion (thanks to someone on these boards posting an article about discernment by Peter Kreeft) that being married is my cross to bear. I had made my decision and asked God to please tell me if it was the right one. One week later I had a broken leg. I don’t necessarily believe in “signs”, but I try to listen to Him speak to me.
Which brings me to the absent priest. I have called him a couple of times and he wants to me meet w/me and dh, but he is very passive in working out a time to see me. I feel really abandoned by him, and I truly want his guidance. I haven’t sought counseling or anything because I want his suggestions.
He will not be able to meet w/me until after Thanksgiving. That’s almost a month after this happened. I can’t drive, so it’s hard to get in to see him on short notice…not that he as asked me to do so. I don’t know what to do. Any suggestions?
Does anyone have a novena that would fit this situation. I have talked to God alot, but no formal prayer…my mind starts wandering when I start the rosary, so I haven’t tried that for several days.
I don’t know what I am going to do, so please be kind in your responses. And I usually feel unworthing asking for prayers, but I have learned I gain strength from knowing others are praying for me. So, please pray for me.
With much gratitude,