So, for the whole Islam thing, for now I have decided that although at some point I want to eventually get back into some religion, now is not the best time for me. Will just continue how I have been these past few years, calling myself a Christian while avoiding the drama of churches(especially after the supreme courts decision, actually am avoiding a lot of social media for the same reason, too much drama).
But, the reason I am here again, going back to one of my first topics here, which I think I am ready to start moving toward my goal more… Hopefully that sentence made sense. I am now sure that I am transgender, and ready to pursue therapy for it, the main issue being that the only way I could actually see a therapist is through my parents because I still cannot drive.
So I am thinking about just coming out to my parents, since that would be the easiest way to bring up therapy, and probably cause the least amount of worry on their part. However, I feel, especially now, that it may be a big shock to them. Since I have just started to get into college, have recently cut my hair pretty short, and have been recently tried growing a beard(honestly those last two were me trying to avoid accepting myself, again). Then of course that my parents are pretty into Catholicism now, and probably at most are expecting me to come out as gay at some point.
But going for me coming out, I have overheard my parents saying in the past that they may not agree if me or one of my brothers came out as gay, but they wouldn’t disown us over it. I have also talked to my parents a lot about recent events in the LGBT community, some guess they could be expecting me to say something soon, and when I have had conversations about it, their opinions have been somewhat positive, with them being mostly neutral… As long as the church doesn’t get targetted by activists.
Though the opinions toward transgender people seems mixed from what I have gotten out of them/overheard. Like my dad referred to them as people with too much money and nothing to spend it on(obviously not in my case, I have actually been very concerned about how I would pay if I decided to pursue HRT in the future).
Now , my reasoning for wanting to come out now, is that my original goal was to come out by the time I turned 18, if I still felt this way. That time has now passed. Also, it is just overall getting harder, and I also become more and more worried about like accidently outing myself on Facebook. For the feelings, they are sadly mostly turning to frustration and anger, was has caused my parents to talk to me more recently about my temper, and I can’t give them a reason why without having to come out…
Back on topic though, sort of. My main worry, is hurting my family, and getting disowned by or losing contact with a majority of the extended family over it(especially my niece, whose adoptive parents have shown some anti-LGBT opinions in the past). Also a bit worried about confusing my youngest brother, who still is having a hard time grasping the concept of gender.
But, if I do come out soon, I will likely just ask my parents to continue to refer to me with my male name and pronouns until I actually start transitioning or something…
So any tips on not hurting my family by coming out? I guess the most logical solution would be to just continue to wait, but that is, like I said, becoming harder(already have kept it a secret for 3 years). Mainly posting this here, since the forums I usually use for these posts is kind of filled with drama at the moment.