I am just looking for some words of encouragement and maybe some prayers. I wrote on here a while ago about how my husband was going to quit his job because of things his boss does in his personal life my husband doesn’t like - well I mean, I had to go along with this decision (even though I don’t have a job) or else it’s a big fight - that’s like his motto - agree with me or…you just better!
Anyway, he has an interview lined up tomorrow and you see I feel like i have to do everything for him. He applies for the easy to apply for jobs and leaves me to apply for jobs for him that require more work (filling in blanks, not just sending resumes) - I mean, hello - these are YOUR jobs and you are unemployed because of reasons I think don’t really have to do with what he says - he just plain didn’t like it there.
Anyway, he is always on my case. For example, this is what happened tonight - this is a typical argument that seems like it’s every day expecially since he quit. His insurance ran out today and i need to make sure he had a 3 month supply of some medication then, but when he saw the dr a month ago, he didn’t even get a prescription from him, so I had to run around this morning getting it straightened out - finally I did this afternoon and my son and I (picking it up for HIM) had to wait for so long I got my son and I a snack and a pop.
Well, after my husband went to bed, i ran to the store and got milk and juice and some computer paper so I can print off directions and his resume, cover letter, etc and brought up the pop and snack that was left over in the car - well my husband wakes up when I was going to bed and says you went to Walgreens? and I said no not now, earlier . He says you’re lying, I see the store bags right there - and I said yes, I just went to the store and got this and that and brought up this stuff which I got at walgreens earlier. Well, I had a lecture about why I never will learn (What?!?!) and then he goes back to bed and sees the computer paper I got and says you got computer paper too?!? I said yeah, we needed that so I could print your stuff out - and then he goes, “so you LIED to me?!?!?!?” and he was mad again, off to the bedroom and slammed the door just now. How did I lie? I mean, did he say before he went to bed the first time to not buy computer paper? No. Where was my LIE?!?!?!
Okay, give me a break. I am getting fed up with this. I really can’t take much more and I am feeling like I don’t have the strength to do this anymore.
He also says he only cares about money and not about my son and me. He wants to start a business but doesn’t have enough cash and doens’t even know what he wants to do and he wants drag me into it too with him - and if I don’t go along with his plans, he starts into something like I wrote above. I can’t take this much longer - I dont’ have the strength.