So here is my situation, I am doubting numerous things like the validity of the bible and the church:
-Having doubts that Jesus exists and his crucification as well, most of the time I do know he exists but i have doubts, so I want historic proof.
-Doubts about purgatory existing but not rejecting to believe in it, I always pray for those in it as well
-Also if Mary is sinless but most of the time I try to stay true but I am unsure if the church teaching is valid.
-How tradition is current with the bible, and where they got their ideas from
-When Jesus sacraficed himself was it current with the things in the bible, is human sacrafice okay in the bible.
-Is pope truly infallible
Again I want to say with all these I stay close to them but I have doubts of whether or not they are valid sometimes. I just dont understand how they exist sometimes and I want to understand though…even though sometimes it feels like everything I believe is gone, I have faith and stay close to God. I can’t put into words this stuff, but here, it is the best I can do. Hope you can help me answer them as well.
***Are these doubts sinful.
** 2087 Our moral life has its source in faith in God who reveals his love to us. St. Paul speaks of the "obedience of faith"9 as our first obligation. He shows that “ignorance of God” is the principle and explanation of all moral deviations.10 Our duty toward God is to believe in him and to bear witness to him.
2088 The first commandment requires us to nourish and protect our faith with prudence and vigilance, and to reject everything that is opposed to it. There are various ways of sinning against faith:
Voluntary doubt about the faith disregards or refuses to hold as true what God has revealed and the Church proposes for belief. Involuntary doubt refers to hesitation in believing, difficulty in overcoming objections connected with the faith, or also anxiety aroused by its obscurity. If deliberately cultivated doubt can lead to spiritual blindness.
2089 Incredulity is the neglect of revealed truth or the willful refusal to assent to it. "Heresy is the obstinate post-baptismal denial of some truth which must be believed with divine and catholic faith, or it is likewise an obstinate doubt concerning the same; apostasy is the total repudiation of the Christian faith; schism is the refusal of submission to the Roman Pontiff or of communion with the members of the Church subject to him."11 **