I tend to have doubts about my prayer life with some frequency. Every once in a while, when I believe that I am praying “well” a voice inside will ask “Are you sure about that? Do you really believe that you are praying and that it is God you are hearing? Do you think you and He talk in such obvious ways? You’re just kidding yourself, illuding yourself into believing that you’re doing something more than introspection.”
When I read Scripture and pause to consider some passage or other, to question just why exactly it has caught my attention and what God is asking me to do in relation to it; when I just simply stop to savour a simple verse, repeating it over and over slowly to internalize it; when in the middle of the workday I recall some particular verse and say it to myself to remember that I am in God’s presence; when I am suddenly “awakened” to the beauty of my surrounding or the suffering of some one near by, and that illicits a prayer of thanksgiving or of mercy; or even when something happens during the day that makes me ask “what is God trying to say to me through this” - it is these things that this voice questions the validity of.
It tends to get annoying, especially given that there seems to be a certain frequency to it. Have any of you ever experieced this?