I am wondering about your thoughts about this:
I have been raised in Catholic home, so I have been Catholic all my life. Naturally, as a child, you don’t understand everything about the faith and what makes is the one true faith.
Lately however, now that I am a young adult, I have been starting to think that I can’t just believe in the Catholic teachings *just *because someone has told me to (My parents). What if I were raised with a different faith? From a Catholic perspective, if I hadn’t doubted my false faith I would never have had the chance to learn about the actual true faith.
Therefore, I am thinking that I can’t just take my (Catholic) faith for granted, as that would be naive. More specifically, what I feel that I need to do is read up on several Christian denominations to see what makes them different, why, and which church is right. I want to be as objective and unbiased about this research as I can possibly be. Playing the devils advocate, so to speak. That said, I am absolutely not ruling out the Catholic church as the true church. What I am saying is that I do not, and can not be sure who is right at this stage.
That does bring some questions however. From a Catholic perspective, I don’t know if I should go to confession in the mean time or not? I feel that it is disrespectful to God to say “The Catholic church could be true, or it could not be true”, go to confession and say that I am sorry for doubting, and then continue to doubt afterwards. For that reason, I haven’t been to confession in a very long time, and I am sorry to say that I am regretfully also in the state of mortal sin. On the other hand, I am thinking that maybe I need the graces in for this research?
Please tell me what you think, or if I am missing something here.