“Cleanliness is next to Godlness” and that’s probably where my problems in life began. I was never taught proper self-hygiene and never learned to clean a house. I am physically disabled. My psychotherapist had me showering every day for a while but it was so hard for me that I couldn’t get anything else accomplished. Now I am back to showering (thoroughly, now I know how to really scrub) about every four days, not so unusual in England in the old days where my family comes from. I also have a severe sleep disorder. I have resolved to eat, shower, and sleep according to the Lord’s will, and this has been working out better for me than my psychotherapist’s demands in maintaining the greatest possibly harmony to my life. However I am left with the problem of housecleaing.
I know how to clean up a big mess, and I have learned how to keep things tidy, but I have a problem with spatial relations that affects things like, specifically, trying to figure out how to change the belt on the vacuum cleaner.
In my house I had cleaners on and off, but I couldn’t supervise them because I was sick at the time and also because I don’t really know how it’s done. I always kept the kitchen and bathrooms clean when I was well, but the floors–sweeping, mopping, vacuuming–I can’t handle, and dusting I just don’t know where to begin. I have a bad back and am generally a twisted up not much good for anything wreck.
Right now I have an apartment because of the ongoing divorce, but have been staying at home to supervise my son, and I’ve been trying to get on track with vacuuming here but I haven’t been here and now that I have, for the last few days, I’ve been up all night and too tired to get the needed vacuuming done. So, having been up all night I am now getting bitten by dust mites and itching all over, I can smell the strong odor of dust when I lay down and so now I can’t sleep.
My son did a lot of the housework when I was very ill, my husband worked him to death, now he is 18 and I am thinking of asking him whether I could pay him to help me. Pending the divorce, we would be sharing the house. He has bigger plans in mind for his future but right now he needs money. The only issue is whether I can get a sufficient settlement from my husband, obviously the whole marriage has been crazy, also my son is loco right now, husband had head injury, trying to throw son out of home and write me off and go somewhere to curl up and die. He has been working sometimes but I don’t know whether he will continue to.