Is there a difference between turning up when one can, eager to hear Scriptures expounded, and finding oneself under obligations?
Was I right in thinking it queer that the parish would imply it considered me under obligation, let alone that it didn’t spell this out frankly, and thirdly, leaving it ambiguous as to whether I was also under obligations to second and third parties who may or may not have been sending the speakers to the meetings?
Because many impressive, charged and intense ceremonials full of aura followed, I seem to be in something I need formally releasing from (I don’t think it overly demanding that it should be with a blessing) and it’s been difficult overall to find persons willing to have me stop and discuss these things.
Some of the personnel involved aren’t there any more and the rest are too embarrassed.
I can’t believe in the Holy Spirit any more because He (it?) was many times invoked on behalf of individuals with high authority, that shouldn’t strictly have been interfering.