I have, fairly spontaneously but nevertheless with some courage joined this board.
I have been a member of the Orthodox Church [Greek] for ten years now. It has had its interesting moment but for the most part it has been an odd struggle.
I realise many people write a bit of a life story and I’ll hardly be an exception.
I am English, my family are, and none of them are particularly religious. I was brought up middle of the road Anglican and later by my teens I drifted further into Protestantism (my friends at the time were American southern baptists).
I had a keen faith and though my family were not particularly religious, they were actively anti-Catholic. In the year before university I started attending an Orthodox parish and after three years of testing the water and catechesis I was chrismated (confirmed) into the church.
I cannot go too far into detail now, but it never quite sat right. It always felt very alien, and though the exotic is alluring, I would convince myself of the noble theology and conservatism of that church.
Because of this unease I have experienced many ‘dark nights of the soul’, and I tried to remedy this with Anglo Catholicism (oh dear).
Well, ever the prodigal son, I came and went, came and went back to the Orthodox Church.
Even as a Orthodox I would take great solace in the Catholic devotional life (it felt naughty though) and I would attend mass at St. Walburgh’s Latin rite in Preston.
But for me I was surrounded by academic theologians (didn’t help spending seven years reading theology).
Well, for the past few years I have been living fairly consistently as a committee athiest.
I do not particularly know where I am at the moment but I find it suffocating to imagine a future in the Orthodox Church. My former Protestant mind rebels at the idea of ‘moving somewhere I feel confortable’ as individualism of that sort is entirely against the spirit of the church in community and submission of will toward God.
I’ll end it here.
I will gladly talk with anyone who is willing.
Apologies if this post is a bit cliche, I just didn’t want to go into detail in my first post.