I am 23 Male my girlfriend of 2 1/2 years just broke up with because i have lied to her about a pornography addiction. I said i would be honest and i wasn’t i have taken many steps to address the issue of porn and she was my biggest supporter and encouragement in seeking help.
The other night i fessed up and shared with her that i have not been honest again. She went to a therapist and was told to end all contact with me and took their advice i feel so lost and destroyed right now, that this amazing woman wants nothing to do with me. i understand why and finally realized first hand how disgusting porn is that it would cause her to leave. she said she loves me and cares for me and will pray for me. however, she needs to work out her issues and encourages me to continue working on mine.
She wont talk to me face to face this was all done over text and phone. I am LOST! i am praying and continuing to work on the porn with even more vigor now then before.
How can someone who says they love you cut you out completely. How can they end it just like that not even be willing to tell me face to face?
All thats said is i need my space and mail me my stuff?? I know this is my fault and a result of my disgusting habit. What can i do what should i do i have never experienced pain like this before in my life except when someone died. PLEASE HELP