Something I thought I would share
I am in my 2nd semester in the seminary there have been some extreme highs and lows with me constantly questioning if this is my vocation or would God rather me be a married deacon or a brother or something else entirely. Its the 2nd-semester things are getting much more stable, and I am more comfortable here. Recently I have felt dramatic spiritual growth over the past few weeks and have consistently been praying for guidance in my search I Just had an epiphany that may have a major impact on my spiritual life as I feel God has given me that guide.
I got on the internet the Wednesday, and I ran into some anti-catholic BS from Protestants on a forum. They were really bashing Mary and claiming Catholics worship her and hold her in a higher place than Jesus and saying there is nothing special about her and she was just a woman like any other. Normally I ignore this kind of stuff as there no point getting into it with these people and the danger of exposing yourself on the internet. However, for some odd reason, I felt compelled to come to mary’s defense. After I was able to counter any argument they came up with and it was clear I won the argument they in some typical shallow anti-Catholic insults then left. I walked into the chapel yesterday for a private round of prayer then I turned a looked at an Icon of Mary with a kneeler in front of it. I flipped through my prayer book and found a 30 day devotional to Mary that is recommended for lent so I decided to do that. I felt very refreshed after the prayer and I got up and did it again in the same spot. I finished the prayer then decided to pray the rosary while I was there.
Now I admit I never felt extremely close to Mary and alway just prayed directly to God and felt as if sometimes she got too much attention. But as I was kneeling there in the second decade of the rosary praying my 3rd or 4th Hail Mary asking for her intercessory prayer looking up at her face I was overcome with the realization of how beautiful a person she was through her actions and more to the point how she can serve as a Guide. Given the willing acceptance of God’s calling to give birth to Jesus. Also, how praying this devotion and the rosary will keep me spiritually on the straight and narrow and trying to imitate her
love can guide me to better serve God.
In short, I had an epiphany for a devotion to Mary who will act as guide to serving God. Just as in the divine commedy Dante had the guide Virgil who would lead him to the paradiso I have found my guide in Mary who will lead me to better serve Jesus.
Does anyone else have a devotional calling to Mary?