He won’t permit me to honor him. It’s a mind-bender he enjoys subjecting me to in his current course of painstaking blasphemy. He was a Catholic in his youth, went to college on scholarship in England, became a PhD in science and gave up his faith for a progressive course of atheism in which he instructed us under the pretext of “letting us choose what to believe” (he took us to a somewhat casual, interdenominational church and stood up in question and answer time and argued with the minister, who ultimately left the church and became an astronomer.)
He has written a book outlining his argument against all religion and for a lifestyle and belief system based on pursuing a life in science. He has had several hundred copies printed up and has distributed them to friends and family, friends including some prominent figures in the electronic engineering industry where he did his life’s work. He is trying to get it published by university presses in England. It brings our lifetime battle to a head. There are some sexual abuse issues. Right now I am forced to live with him for lack of money. I divorce my ex husband 6 years ago because my family’s negativity made our marriage unworkable, he is Canadian just as they are British and he believed them about my life and counted me a liar. I loved him right away and the last thing I wanted to do was to hurt him but my parents set us up for a fall. I was determined not to let the relationship repeat my past mistakes but it was even worse, I had not idea what was happened, and then it was over. He’s in Florida and I’m here in PA trying to pick up the pieces.
The point is, my parents do not WANT me to succeed. in Church on Sunday I overheard talk about them wanting to put me in a Mental Instution, and there I draw the line. I am getting baptized in the next few weeks and that puts everything in a new light.
I just want to know how to handle my father, and my mother who doesn’t support me because she gets spoiled by him for mistreating me. My counselor has given me a book on surviving sexual abuse but it is hard when I am living under their roof. I have an application in for housing and the nun who is counseling me says just keep hoping it will come through.
So how do you honor parents who don’t respect you and would rather put your light under a bushel? There is another matter here of a sexual injury, when I was a young girl , which was worsened by damage in the ICU when I took an overdose when I was 24 years old. So there is some reason to their madness in how they handle me. I require extreme special treatment. But I have always stepped up to the bat and performed exceptionally within those constraints, for instance attending an Ivy League University and getting married and having a kid despite my disability. They don’t consider that a success, they say it was work for them, they didn’t take care of me they just took over my son’s care and left me out, which I didn’t appreciate.
So what gives here? Specifically, I am concerned about praying the Rosary a certain way that reflects my past relationship with them that I am hoping the Lord will change.