I just wanted to share my experience with you. I have attended the ‘Extraordinary’ rite mass a number of times over the last few years.
I was initially drawn to the rite because my Grandmother used to tell me about it and she was a very spiritual person. About 5 years ago I attended an SSPX chapel - the only one in our area that was using the rite at that time. It really put me off - the mass was celebrated beautifully but the sermon was very negative - including slating the Pauline Mass, the one which I grew up with and which I believe can be very beautiful if celebrated correctly.
My second experience was at the local Mass celebrated by the FSSP - it was a good experience but something didn’t click. At that time there was a ‘properly’ celebrated NO Mass just up the road from me which I found to be an intensely spiritual experience.
Since then, the Mass at my local parish has declined. The awful 70s and 80s hymns have taken over and one of the priests makes every Mass into ‘his show’. At a baptism last week he was practically encouraging the congregation to shout responses in a game show style. He takes every opportunity to make each homily about him and the difficulties of his life. At one point I had to walk out of after he made a joke about how his colleague, the parish priest, is very good with children but ‘isn’t a paedophile’.
I’m rambling a bit.
Anyway, it saddens me to say that I have not been attended mass for several months because I found what I was seeing quite painful.
I was drawn, therefore, to something more traditional and today I went back to the FSSP Mass. It was a Missa Cantata (I think) and for the first time in a long time I felt at engaged in what was going on and very much at peace. I didn’t manage to follow everything that was going on but I think that would come in time.
Anyway, I still feel a bit odd about the whole thing? Should I continue with the TLM or should I be attempting to tackle what I perceive to be the abuses of the liturgy at my local parish? Should I wait to see whether they introduce a traditional mass? (Although I think the facilities may make it impossible).
I’m not sure what the right thing to do is?