Good day Brothers and Sisters in Christ,
I am discerning religious life this year. I attended few religious seminars in the first quarter of the year until the pandemic hits. The quarantine months were tough. I lost my job and found new one. I had emotional breakdowns. And doubted my vocation. Nevertheless, I continued going in online seminars. Just this month, I met religious people. Unfortunately, I developed intrusive thought. Priests having affairs (I have OCD which adversely affected everything last year but I can manage it now though). My concern is my obsession. I am cringing whenever I think of the priests I admire falling into sin of the flesh. I began stalking their social media and it saddens me whenever I see they are following or befriending ladies and women. I just could not shrug the thought off. I want to assure that they are holy because I want to be surrounded by holy men when I decide to enter. I know I am too judgemental but I just could not easily discard the thought. Do you think I need professional psychological help?
Thank you so much!