Without getting into an excruciating amount of detail, I had a thought enter my mind. Is it possible for God to use fear to lead somebody to their vocational calling? I suppose what I mean is, if a person develops severe social anxieties, could God be using that to call them to a monastic or hermit vocation? If a person is afraid of crowds, could God be using that emotion to drive the individual towards a vocation?
I have a decent amount of social anxiety, and when somebody asked me about a Benedictine Monastery one state over, the thought came to my mind, “You can’t go to a monastery just because you’re afraid of something.” But is that true? Could God have allowed you that anxiety, because He knew that you (or society) would push back against such a vocation otherwise? I’m not saying that the main reason a person goes into such a lifestyle should be to ‘run away,’ but could God be using that as an avenue to get the message across to you?