(my intention in this thread is not to say anything bad about my family, but because I’m at the end of my rope here lol.)
I know that we should leave others’ salvation up to God and entrust them to Him… I also know that we don’t know anyone else’s hearts and where they spiritually.
But sometimes I get so worried about the salvation of my family that I feel genuinely afraid and can’t stop thinking about it!
I’m not saying I’m “more saved” than they are…
I’m a sinner myself, probably more than them.
But my family doesn’t go to church and sometimes the things my mom says about spiritual things really worry me… like she told me that I should work, not pray, and depend on myself not on God. And that we “don’t really know” if there is the afterlife and such. She told me I go to church too much and am becoming fanatical. And this totally breaks my heart…not for my sake but because I start worrying so much. I start worrying also that I’m having a negative effect on her and leading her away from God, not towards Him! this causes me a lot of guilt, because my intention is the opposite, and I’m trying to really not be pushy, but just a joyful Christian…
and my grandma doesn’t believe in God, as far as I know…
I’ve been praying every day that my family would go to Confession and Communion this summer (they’re Eastern Orthodox), and it doesn’t seem to be happening!!
do you think this is judgemental of me?? (be honest)
I’m not saying they’re on the way to hell and I’m going to Heaven. Not at all. I think a lot about my salvation too. And a part of me always hopes that my mom doesn’t REALLY mean those words, but just says them cause she’s upset.
Well at least my (mom and dad) believe in God and there have been times when I could see the situation really improving…
but some of my really good friends, they don’t even believe, and a few are into wicca and stuff like that!
do you ever feel that your heart just breaks for people?
Do you think if you pray for someone’s conversion every day and you pray to Jesus, our Blessed Mother, and the Saints (like in my case: St Therese, St Padre Pio, St Faustina, and St Anthony of Padua) - that it would actually happen?? what if you offered a Mass for them (cause I heard you can offer it for living people too)?
another problem is my WORRY and fear because that’s clear evidence of distrust in God I wish I trusted Him more…
if you have a moment, could you please say a prayer for my family and friends.
thanks so much.