I have said before that i feel like i want to be a Priest. I have given this thing ALOT of thought. In fact, i feel at the moment, too much. I think about Priesthood now everyday, everyday, and i feel the desire as well. I love Prayer, I love People and I love CHRIST and HIS Church first and foremost. It gets annoying though. I cant put Priesthood out of my head, or the desire out of my heart, my heart swells when i think of it. Like right now, i wish the LORD would do HIS WILL, by taking this call out of me or affirming the call. I cant stand waiting anyomore, i feel like the desire/itch will kill me :eek: . I feel like giving up, and not even applying to Seminary, although i feel if i didnt, i would reget something eternally.
St. Don Bosco always said “oh, if i could be a Priest, with desire” i feel like im in his shoes, (although i wish i was half as holy as him), i feel like saying the same things. I have prayed LORD LET THY WILL BE DONE, and the nudge wont leave. Its like an itch thats killing me!!
What interest could i serve if i became a Priest for myself?? I dont feel like there is any. To gain a prefix of “Fr.” before my name? I could get a PhD and Proffesor before my name if i wanted to be that proud, i couldnt absolve myself, i couldnt bless myself, and saying MASS only for myself would be pointless. What self seeking interests are there for Priests?? I dont feel any? if i wanted to be a Priest for myself, then why would i waste my time? i would go out and live like the heathens if i was that self seeking??
HELP ME!!! :eek::eek::eek::eek::eek: