That you are feeling guilty - even tempted to feel guilty –
about anything at ALL to do with asking God for something –
Methinks that “guilt feeling” is being strongly suggested to you by Satan.
As you and I both know – he’s into that kind of thing. Satan hates, hates, hates each one of us.
And to turn us away from God in ANY way – even tempting us to feel guilty for asking our Father, our Lord, our Advocate – for even ANYTHING as long as we don’t want to “offend” God (which I know from reading what you want IS your intent) –
well, that irritates Satan no end.
How about you try this? — Tell Satan - gently ===
because, after all, no need for violence in our mood about it – so if we’re being “violent” in any way when addressing Satan then THAT “violence” in our tone just takes us to the “dark side” (so to speak)
— and tell Satan to just shove it. In the name of Jesus. I’m not kidding. I’m not trying to be cute about it or anything like that.
Just say – like a woman saint whose name currently escapes me – would say when Satan was bothering her so much in her dreams that she woke up – she, without adjusting her blanket or anything at all – actually, she just opened one eye and saw him looking straight at her – she said this –
“Oh. You. Go away.”
And she turned around and went back to sleep.
I don’t know why that came to my mind to tell you in this post. It just did. Maybe that’ll help. Maybe, it won’t. In any case –
All God wants is for us to WANT what He wants. Which I know, already, that you do.
And tell that to God. Which I know, already, that you have done.
Now – let it go. Keep doing what you’re doing at your job. In your work. Trusting that God will bless whatever is HIS will that you do.
And if it doesn’t work on any particular task that you’re doing – well, that’s just as well as if it DID work for what you were doing.
The proof is in the “fruit.”
Hope this helps.
p.s. Yes. I’m praying for you here where I am. Certain that God will make it clear for you for what you are to do next.
He has given us all whatever intelligence, etc. we need to do His will. We learn what our particular skills and aptitudes are. And we choose to use them. And to increase our skills in those things. For what HE wants us to do with those skills, etc. that we have – which, after all, ultimately are from HIM with our free choices in using them –
All we need to do is ask. Listen, Then – let it go. He is, after all, the King.
He just might surprise you.