Thank you so much for praying for me everyone. I have tremendously wonderful news. I have been accepted into dental school!
I got my acceptance letter just a few days ago in the email and in the mail - I feel so blessed.
Before I began applying into dental school, I thought that my grades/scores were too low - and that no school would accept me, but as the months passed by, I began to receive all these interview invitations (7 schools invited me to interview) - Never in my life would I imagine that many schools wanted to interview me. wow!
Then, I finally got one acceptance out of all the schools that I interviewed at - only one school accepted me (I’m still waiting for a response from the other schools).
And at first, I was so relieved and SO THANKFUL. I have heard about students who got rejected from every dental school they applied to - and had to re-apply three years - before even one school accepted them. I was scared to death that I would end up like them. I was scared to death that no school would accept me - my grades/scores were very low/average. I was so relieved that I finally got one dental school acceptance.
However, in the following days after my acceptance from that school, I began to do research on that school, and found out that the school has an extremely bad reputation - people on the internet constantly gossip about that school - saying awful, insulting this about that school. The school is only two years old, and so many people on the internet gossip about the school.
My grades were bad, and my test scores were mediocre. I thought that no school would accept me. I use to think that even if ONE school in the entire country would accept me - then I would be happy. However, after finding out that my school has such a bad reputation - it makes me feel so sad. As of right now, currently, this is the only dental school that has accepted me - and it is not known to be “prestigious.”
On top of that - some of my other pre-dental friends have gotten accepted into more prestigious, well-known schools, and I do feel happy for them, but deep down - I feel jealous - a little bit -
I feel so selfish for complaining - there are some students out there who have not had any interviews so far - and there are some students out there who have had to be rejected three years in a row (I personally met a student at one of my interviews who was rejected from dental school - three years in a row)
I remember praying to God - asking Him to help me to get accepted - and that I would be happy to be accepted to any school - but now that I am actually accepted to dental school - I feel jealous of other students who got accepted to better dental schools than I did.
I feel so selfish for complaining and for feeling jealous - and I never thought that I would care what other people think about me - but a part of me does feel a little jealous. I never thought that I would care about what other people say about my school/education - but deep down, I do …
I never thought that I would care about the “prestige” or the “name” of the dental school - and I thought that I just wanted to get accepted… but now that I am accepted, I feel sad and disappointed that I didn’t get accepted into a more prestigious dental school.
My pride/ego is hurt - and… I’m jealous
I guess, I am hoping that maybe you could please give me advice.
When I first got accepted into this school, I was so excited and thankful - but just a few days later- these feelings of excitement and thankfulness faded - and now I desperately want to get back my excitement and thankfulness. My pride is hurt.
Do you think that I can ask God to fill me with thankfulness? Do you think … if I prayed about, God can somehow change my feelings? Do you think that God can help me to get over my pride?
I want so much to stop feeling sad. This is my last year in college - before I begin dental school in the fall - I want so much to feel fresh and alive again. My pride is hurt - and I want to fix it.
Please help me. If there is anyone out there who can please say something to uplift me and to encourage me… please help me.