Just for background, I’m a middle aged cradle Catholic, and celebrated the usual sacraments including marriage. The last couple of years have been very difficult; my marriage has fallen apart and our divorce is nearly final. This brought about a bad case of depression which has been better with treatment but is still lingering.
In the midst of all this, lately I’ve been struggling with belief in God, any kind of life after death, or any kind of meaning in life. It’s really awful.
I’m terrified about the prospect of dying one day and there just being… nothing. Honestly, though, I don’t see a logical way around it. I have a ton of questions about how God and existing past the death of the body would work. No one wants God to be real more than me but I just don’t believe right now (or let’s say I’m at 5% belief, 95% very skeptical).
Any thoughts or advice? Many thanks.