I have been examining my spiritual life lately, in light of the three stages of the interior life (purgative, illuminative, and unitive), I have asked Our Lord to give me humility and to make me a saint. As I have been examining my life, I have come to the understanding that I was not at the stage where I thought I was, and it was pride that made me think of my self holier than I should have. I have come to notice that I am at the purgative state still and have a deep longing in my soul to advance in my spirituality, be holier, and be closer to God.
I know that there isn’t anything that I can do that can make me holy, that comes from God, but, despite that I knew this mentally, I just came to that realization in my heart not too long ago. I have realized that with out God I am nothing and my life has absolutely no meaning whatsoever. At times, I do feel like the most miserable man on the planet and I see my own faults and weaknesses and I just come to the conclusion that I have nothing. There are times that I just feel stuck and I pray to God to help me overcome this and lead me where He wants me to go.
I have talked to my spiritual director about things that I have been going through, but I am not due to see him until January for my next appointment. I wanted to know if there are others that may have or are going through the same situation that I am going through. What have you done to find consolations and have helped you in your spiritual journey. Ultimately, I know that no matter what you do, it is God who freely gives this gift, but any advice that is grounded on the traditional (not New Age mumbo jumbo, yoga, centering prayer, etc) spirituality of the Catholic Church will help.