Im just wondering if anyone here is in the same situation…
I feel really torn between the two options… marriage or religious life.
When I think of religious life, I think of giving my life entirely to Jesus, being completely His… and I really want this, and I think I’d be sad in a way if God called me to marriage, because the concept of religious life is so beautiful to me. Whenever I look at websites for various orders, especially ones that are cloistered, I feel so much peace and joy and I wish to be one of them… I know it’s not an easy life, and there are many difficulties, and sacrifices, but it seems so meaningful and something that is truly for God alone
at the same time, I have a natural desire for marriage and family, and my family is sort of expecting me to marry one day, and I understand what is wonderful about that life too…
but I don’t know what God’s will is, or how to tell.
My spiritual director told me to receive the Sacraments often, to come closer to Jesus, and then things would be more clear - because when we are close to God we’re more able to hear His voice and to respond. Im trying to do this, but whenever I do get closer to Jesus, I start wanting to love Him more and to give my whole life to Him… and I can’t tell if this is a calling to be a nun, or just my own desires to love God (which is a grace also)
I’m also afriad that I’d decide to be a nun, but then when I join an order I’ll see it’s not what God wants for me… OR, that I’d get married and then regret that I didn’t have the courage to look into religious life.
how in the world do you discern?