I know anger is not the feeling I should be feeling right now. Me and my family have found the truth and have left the mormon or lds church for our new catholic faith. But anger is what I am currently feeling. I resent every hour I wasted over my life trying to believe the unbelievable. Every dollar that went to build a church that wasn’t Gods. Every time I didn’t listen to people around me who where just trying to help me find the truth. I am angry that I was so stupid.
I am eternally grateful for the love Christ has shown me by leading me to the truth. I am grateful for the love of my husband and family. I am grateful that I found out the truth while my children are still young enough to be molded.
I am scared because this is new and I have so much to learn. I am scared because there is big holes in my life where mormonism used to be that I need to fill so they don’t get filled by things that would be hurtful. I am even scared that I wont find any new friends at my new parish.
I am impatient because I can barely stand to wait to become one with Christ in truth. I am impatient because I have so much to learn and my brain only works so fast.
I am sad because I my parents and brother, and sister are still lost. I am sad for all the people I see who truely believe in christ but are mislead.
Is it any wonder than I am emotionaly exausted at times.