I have chronic illness issues that are similar to fibro, cfs and ms caused by on overexposure to pesticides that affected my liver, immune and nervous systems. Going on 7 years now. It is difficult. God has allowed me to help others at times, but I never feel like it’s enough. I always want to be able to do more and just can’t. The fatigue is the worst. I wrote this awhile back to try to explain the fatigue to someone else.
Tired of dragging through each day with barely enough energy to prepare simple meals and eat.
Tired of feeling like a bump on a log.
Tired of watching TV, but too tired to read or do anything else.
Tired of being bored.
Tired of exhausting our meager income on health treatments that aren’t working fast enough.
Tired of always worrying about money.
Tired of watching my family continue to live their lives as I sit in the chair or lay on the couch.
Tired of always disappointing people by canceling get-togethers or meetings.
Tired of being too tired to talk on the phone yet longing for human interaction.
Tired of not being able to say to well-wishers “I feel just great!”
Tired of being a downer to everyone.
Tired of wanting to go and do things and knowing it’s just not possible.
Tired of wanting to help others in need and not being able to.
Tired of praying, wondering if it’s doing any good.
Tired of feeling like I’m 75 when I’m only 44.
Tired of watching the world go by.
Tired of feeling sorry for myself.
Tired of feeling completely useless.
Tired of looking at my messy, dirty house and not being able to do anything about it.
Tired, weary, fatigued, exhausted, spent, lethargic, overloaded, drained, worn out, empty, sluggish, useless, a shell.