Lately i have been finding myself more and more worried about the future and the end of the world. it started about a year ago, and i dealt with constant fear, and it is what originally lead me back to the church, and since then i have gone to church every Sunday possible, gone to confession almost every weekend, and generally invested a lot of my time into praying and trying to please God, and for that i am very glad. the problem is that i fear, to the point of it dominating my thoughts, the end times and if they are coming soon. i fear things like persecution and torture and the idea that no matter what i do, if I am alive during the great tribulation, that i will fail no matter how hard i try. i know nobody can say for sure when the end is, or what will be afoot during those times, but some of the threads on this forum are utterly horrifying, to be honest, in the way the end times are described, and i find that i become constantly terrified that no matter what i do i am going to fail. i fear so many things it ruins a lot of things that i love. sometimes I am so depressed and fearful that i shake uncontrollably. the honest truth is that i am currently in the military, but live 3000 miles away from my family, and although i have been in for 2 years now and should be used to it, i still really want to be near the people i love, and that adds to the anxiety.
I would just love this depression to go away so i can finally find joy in things again.
there is an upside though, and that is that i am ALWAYS happiest at church. personaly prayer does not seem to be as effective, but i still pray all the time.
any advice from anybody on what to do?
and maybe some prayers too if its not too much to ask.