I have a question I hope you might be able to help me out with.
I have felt like I may have a vocation to religous life since I was very young. However, I chose to finish high school and earn a college degree (which I completed May 2009) Its not that I was ever closed off to the idea of joining a community, it's just that I never thought it was the right time. After finishing college, I reached a point where I almost entered a community, however I chose not to. The Vocation Director put a TON of preasure on me, and at the end fo the day, although I LOVED the sisters, and overall really felt a "click" with the community, I just was really turned of by this Vocation Director, and with no better way to put it, I was basically stressed out.
I have not had any contact with the community since then, however, I costantly find myself thinking about them. I visited another community this summer, and although I really enjoyed the sisters, I found myself constantly comparing them to the community that I mentioned above. I am begining to wonder if this is the Lord's way of saying, "don't be afraid, just go". But at teh same time, I'm afraid that I'll get out there and go "Holy Moly... I made a mistake!" Does that make sense?
I feel like I can no longer really continue my descernment on the outside, if you will, and at this point I need to really get serious about entering a community.
Has anyone else experienced this? Do you have any advice?
Thanks so much!