A Catholic friend helped me setup an account with Catholic Answers.
I will be Catholic this Easter, but first I have to go to confession. One of the biggest reasons I wanted to become Catholic is the weight of my sins. Under my old Protestant religion, I was slipping closer and closer to hell and deeper into sin.
For most of my life, my sin was prob. run of the mill, a little heavy on the lust side, but run of the mill. Then after a series of financial and body trauma, I committed 4 or 5 mortal sins, that if I confessed to the authorities would get me probation and or a few years behind bars. Hard to say.
Right after the last mortal sin, I thought it best to just hang myself immediately following the sin, so I could just send myself straight to hell were I felt I belonged, without the chance of salvation, because I don’t deserve it. I was going to do it at once. I am not sure what changed my mind, but obviously, I did not add suicide as my final sin.
It was then I decided to become Catholic. I removed myself from the situation so I would sin no more or not be tempted to do the same sin, though I no longer wanted to, I wanted to hedge my bets so to speak.
Things got better as I attended mass, read the Bible, prayed the Rosary and so on. Prayers have been answered, and I have a good relationship with my priest.
However… I am scared to death about confessing these sins! I would go out of town and do it, but I have to be catholic to do that, and then there is first communion, which I can’t take and then go confess later, as I will still be in a state of mortal sin.
What will my priest think of me? He will hate me. I am just full of anxiety about this.
Please pray for me! Please pray that my priest will understand… and not hate me, throw me out of the church… will he do that?
I have begged the Lord, God, and Mary to forgive my sins during prayer.