I was confirmed and i communed for the first time in my life this past easter. I didn’t expect any life changing earth shattering reactions. I forbade myself from thinking about it so that i wouldnt hype myself up to be dissapointed.
The greatest mystery to me was that it tastes like bread, looks like bread, but it is truly Jesus Christ’s flesh. It’s a bit of a mind twister! I spent my thanksgiving offering praise to Jesus and asking him to fill my “cup of faith” so that i never take his flesh for granted.
Since then i’ve been every day this week, i just can’t stop. I don’t get any “feelings”, there was one moment i felt briefly ecstatic. For me, the big difference comes 20 to 30 minutes after receiving. I feel much more sensitive to the people and things around me, i feel more love for everything, i want to help people. I would say that is a positive effect on my life.
Oh, and since palm sunday the Lord has kept me free from my past vices, and this time i’m not foolish enough to squander this grace!
My gf said, when i asked her how it felt, sometimes you feel a little something, most of the time you don’t.
Keep the faith!