Just a little story of today’s events for me
Today was quite a emotion bearing one. I was having a empty day where the world seemed bleak and against me as the day went by. I took extream notice whenever I felt that I was simply a background in others conversations, or blatantly ignored. Really I accepted that I’m anti-social and dislike talking to others for more than a greeting.
Anyways lunch comes and during the long lunch line I am kinda forced into disscussion with this person I knew from last year though really just aknowledged and never talked personally with. For some reason I was asked my religion and when I said Catholic; it seemed like the green light to begin the thrashing of religion. With a smug outlook he questioned me about the Clergy scandal, how some stories in the bible were even possible to achieve, and even went as far as to say that he read the bible more than I did. him reading it to find contridictions and the more violent parts of the OT Finally getting out of line I promptly broke away from him giving at least a mediocre job at apolegetics.
I believe by that point I reached the bottom point of my care for Human socializing. I felt disgust at simply seeing others laughing and enjoying themselves (People I didn’t know) and pretty much wanted nothing to do with other people. Well I finish school in this horrid mood and keep it mostly the same during a after-school meeting of speech and debate. I find out that I won’t be picked up for another hour because I messed up with the timing for my mother to pick me up. Luckily for me my High school had a parish right next door to it. I was calmed down by now though I still would rather not talk to anybody at the moment and decided to go wait at the Parish.
Part of my story that has to do with the topic
Well I enter the chapel and WOW the impact was almost immediate. Seeing the Eurcharist sacrifice and the silence of the place had melted all my anger and frustration at the world away. (I litterally shed tears when I entered the peace of the chapel) So I placed my backpack down and kneeled at Eurcharist saying any prayers I knew and felt a spiritual lightening. I spent about ten minutes in there but it was more than enough to get me feeling better about the day.
Anyways that was my first experience with Adoration; I really hope to have my mother pick me up late more often.
Off topic: Is it a sin to be anti-social? I literally have about two people who talk to me and listen fully even if another person is there. Everyone else I know fade me into the background the moment one of their ‘closer’ friends arrive and start talking. I really have no will to want to change that so answering this would be helpful to me.