With time though, I began to discern a darker side to Islam and what it has done to the rationality or thinking of the people. For example, when talking to a well-educated Muslim, one who has more often than not been educated in the West, it is easy to be lead into a false sense of security; that is, they are rational people like yourself. Not at all. I know PhD professors who have lived in Western countries for many years,who still insist that their wives must wear the niqab (ninja face veil) and hijab (head scarf) in public. They insist that adulterers should be publicly stoned and hands and feet chopped off and that apostates should either be killed or at the very least, deported. When hearing such primitive ideas and beliefs held by supposedly “educated” Muslim professors, my heart sank a thousand feet and my head started to swirl. I began to ask myself: WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING IN THIS COUNTRY WITH SUCH PEOPLE! I even started to doubt myself (being trained in the Western tradition of self-doubting). I wondered if I was being too sensitive, that I didn’t understand the culture enough and that I didn’t have the right to judge them! I was confused but held my tongue and kept working quietly away. But something was gnawing away inside of me; something just wasn’t right. I felt less and less comfortable living amongst these people with such callous, medieval religious beliefs. I even started to feel less safe and more fearful. I began to sense that fear and control seem to pervade Muslim society and that Muslims did actually live in fear and mistrust of each other, living in some Orwellian world of self-censorship and over-regulation that stifled thought and creativity There appeared to be a great schism between the private and the public spheres; that you could do anything you wanted in private as long as it was not revealed in public. It was, to my mind, a hypocritical morality and way to live. Right and wrong was only judged by whether or not it became a “public” crime; this is, if others found out about it outside the immediate closed family circle. One of my Muslim colleagues explained it thus: If a man or woman commits adultery, then as long as it is not revealed in public, the adulterer can be forgive by Allah if the offender asks for forgiveness. But if the adultery or crime becomes public, then he or she has to be publicly punished. What hypocrisy and double standards I thought! Why can’t forgiveness be done in public as well? If Allah can forgive a “sin” in private, why not public? Another learned professor told me that if a woman is raped, then her family cannot tolerate it as it has brought shame and disgrace upon them and so, she must be killed. What a mentality! The poor girl has been raped through no fault of her own and so she must be killed because the family feels disgraced! What if the poor girl wanted to live? What right has her family to kill her thus in cold-blood?
Then I realised that even though these “educated” Muslims, my colleagues, are friendly and courteous on the exterior, they are able to kill their own sister or niece if the rape is made public for the sake of their family’s honour. What rubbish is this? The conclusion I came to is that their religion, invented by a madman, a thug and terrorist like Mohammad, has twisted their minds, distorted their rationality and squeezed humanity out of them. This was the only logical conclusion I could reach. There is nothing wrong with the Arab per se; they truly are courteous and hospitable people, but that is only half of who they are: the other half, the flip side, is their sinister religion Islam, which has made what appear to be “nice” rational people, potential irrational killers.
Islam is a fallacious religion that has produced misguided people over many centuries. I have no doubt now that the reason why many Muslim countries are so backward, poor and reactionary, is precisely because of Islam. Islam is no friend to rationality, morality and humane progress, but is rather their antithesis. Another 'learned” lecturer, when discussing this point, even agreed with me about the backwardness of Islamic countries and lack of scientific and technological progress. At last, I thought, here is a Muslim who is starting to see reason. However, my initial delight was short-lived. He then proceeded to turn my argument on its head entirely by suggesting that Muslim countries are NOT following true Islam and if they were, then they would be even more successful than Western countries today! When I heard this I almost fell off my seat. I wanted to run away and cry. What is wrong with these people? Can they not see that it is Islam that is holding them back? It is so obvious to everyone else. But talking to Muslims about the deficiencies of Islam in a logical and positivistic way is like trying to convince a drug-addict that what he or she is doing is harmful. The addict answers back: So therefore we need MORE of the drug, not less! We just haven’t applied it correctly!