For All Struggling with Surrendering to God
Ever since my older brother took his life at the age of 17 (I was 15), I have suffered from generalized anxiety disorder and a food addiction. Medication has never worked for me and always makes my anxiety and depression worse. I have been in and out of therapy for years. 12 years ago, after I injured my spine, was the first and only time, up until now, that I became seriously depressed and overcome with anxiety.
So I voluntarily admitted myself to 2 different hospitals for this mental anguish. The first hospital was a nightmare and I was released after 6 days. The second one was wonderful, a hospital for eating disorders. I had a longer stint there and I got well! (That program has now moved elsewhere.)
And so now with my upper respiratory chest infection sickness for months which I have not been able to recover from (they say it is not they coronavirus 3 times, but I know my body very well and I totally disagree), I am suffering great mental anguish all over again. After having been free from this anguish for 12 years. And also - all so much worst because of the stress of this pandemic.
Because of my symptoms, I keep making mistakes over and over again now.
I keep contacting this other hospital for eating disorders but the director (who was the director at the other place where I got well) still has not gotten back to me. I know that there is a waiting list. I do not mind going back into the hospital but I just hope and pray that I can get into this one where I will be treated well.
Please say a little prayer for this need.
And for All of us who Struggle with Trusting and Surrendering to God
Thank you so much.