I have been praying for months to be open to God’s will in searching for a new (or staying in my current) job. Last week, I received a job offer, and I believe it is in answer to these prayers.
However, since the offer, I have been feeling a great deal of anxiety - to the point of (self-diagnosed) panic attacks - about leaving my current job - not fears that I will fail in my new one, but that I may be fired, or somehow disliked and mocked after I leave.
My head knows that probably the best thing that could happen is I will be fired - it will give me time to prepare for my new work and spend time with my family. My head also knows that if I’m afraid of my co-workers taking shots at me behind my back, I don’t want to work there anyway! But in my heart…fear.
I don’t know why this is causing such anxiety and hesitation for me, again, I believe this new opportunity is exactly what God has intended for me to pursue (by the way, signal graces are very real).
Please pray that I will have confidence instead of fear, joy instead of doubts, and hope instead of hesitation.