Please help. I would like to ask to be included in your prayers.
I am in my forties and have never been married. I am engaged to a wonderful man. At this time I am having second thoughts about it all. I have never had anyone like him in my life. He has been my best friend. Marrying him will be a huge and dramatic change in my life. I would be leaving the state and becoming a stepmother to his 3 young children. He is widowed.
I don’t want to lose him, yet, I find myself with many mixed feelings. It’s as if suddenly, and for no apparent reason, I am no longer physically attracted to him. It’s like I’m going in and out of feelings for him. Literally by the minute. One minute, I’m missing him and wanting to be with him. The next, I’m wanting to just stay as I am.
I fear that I am stuck in my ways being that I have been on my own for so long, yet I want so much to have a wonderful husband and family of my own (even if its not my own children).
I don’t have anyone that I can turn to. My mother disapproves of him because he has children. She has disapproved of any actions I have taken to search for a spouse. She is of the belief that if God has someone for me, He will just drop him out of the sky. To give you a better idea of her way of thinking, she recently lost her income from some farm property she has. Instead of being proactive to find use for the land, she tells me she will pray that God send her an income.
If you could please say even one small, tiny prayer for me, I would greatly appreciate it.