I have dealt with a lot of depressive and hopeless feelings and occasionally intertwined with the thoughts of suicide. I don’t plan on hurting or killing myself, basically because according to my faith and even natural reasoning the would cause more suffering to myself and others than practically anything else I could do. But the question comes up to my mind and my emotions every once in a while. I was just praying a Rosary for a recently departed priest friend of mine, and considering my difficult economic and social situation in my life, the thought occurred once again as to why suicide would be of any use. I have a therapist and psychiatrist, so I wanted to ask for prayers for me to gain help from them for these thoughts. I suffer emotional pain frequently and of great magnitude. I guess the one consolation I get is to share in Jesus’ suffering. I am also extremely exhausted most of the time, which may or may not be contributed to by some of the medication I am prescribed. I don’t want to sound like a whiner or complainer, but the mental and emotional suffering I endure, and seemingly endure alone, are staggering. There will be times where I get through a profound and long lasting bout of emotional, mental, and spiritual suffering, thinking it could not get any worse, when out of the blue an even greater burden is placed on my soul. But please offer prayers for me and for any who suffer the same or even worse mental, emotional, and spiritual sufferings. Also, please ask God to give me a great devotion to praying the Stations of the Cross. I love the Rosary, but I need to add to that a devotion to the Stations of the Cross. Please also pray for Joan, Ronald, and Andrew in their sufferings.
God bless all of you and thank you so much for any prayers.