My father, a Catholic/Anglican by upbringing, has suffered all his life, I have realized, from the deadly sin of Vanity, a form of Pride. for a long time I prayed the Divine Mercy Chaplet for him. He writes tracts advocating atheism alone and in secret. He actually said in our last phone call that love/Love isn’t important–just a Christian notion. He would never say this to my brother or sister. He takes liberties with me, and has for thirty-five years, going back to a minor skirmish with sexual abuse when I was 17–also his VANITY–he actually thought I would receive his attentions. I got the blame. I have been swept under the rug ever since.
But God is winning the war. It is my father I am concerned for. He is 82 this year.
Vanity, I read at widipedia, is a form of idolatry and separates and can even completely divorce you from the Love and Grace of God. I see this clearly happening with my father. I always thought he was “narcissistic” and gave him a break because of his rough childhood but now I see that his was nothing compared to mine, that he has no excuse for his VANITY, that it has become a sickness. He prevented me from mentioning God at Christmas at my parents house. He has my mother convinced of his “high-sounding notions” even though it is clear to me that she would follow religious inclinations if she could.