I feel very sad these days for my poor relationship with my ward mates, classmates and spiritual director. I am worried that I have irritated one of my ward mates for imprudent speech, and that I would be isolated by them. Also, I am miserable for not having some reliable buddies in my class and rotation, who can supply me with important information related to my study. As you know, I am not good at initiating conversations and my interests as well as values are different from many of my classmates, so while I can hold social conversations, I cannot really develop authentic friendship with them. I am a person who very much yearns for friends, but I am at the same time always living in the fear of losing friends for my wrongdoings. I am afraid my interminable messages which express my feelings would stir up hatred among my friends, even among my closest best friends, as well as irritating my spiritual director. I do not intend to offend them, but somehow I am always suspicious of my ability in social interaction. My dear Jesus, please heal all these wounds and deliver me from unnecessary skepticism. Dear Mother Mary, please pray for me.